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Cover Me Up
04:31
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Not used to keeping quiet, not used to laying low,
Feel stares from past desires, they fear I'm getting old,
This pace has kept me moving, I've fought back all the noise,
Locked up my darkest demons before they could destroy,
I keep myself contained to a picture and a name,
I let the world see what I want them too,
Reveal a face of cracks and fault lines,
I'll enhance myself another time,
Cover me up, cover me up,
I held my tongue for far too long, kept my whispers trapped behind by gums,
The simple tasks test me most,
The translucent skin, your living ghost,
Reluctancy impounded me, I'll take of myself, this jobs for no one else,
These battles aren't won, there's respite and there's calm,
And there's no white flag waving weak,
Capture all my motions and keep them in a jar,
Give me room to breathe, give me space to be,
Anything I want, anything you need,
If it's alright with you then it's okay with me
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2. |
I'm A Hazard
04:27
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We let the garden overgrow, it wasn't our problem,
We let the rot spread deep and it infected us,
We let the bathroom walls bleed black,
I told this story once or twice and no one really gets it,
They didn't see the signs, they didn't see my eyes,
We locked ourselves inside a downward spiral,
And the winter felt so cold, it froze me to the bone,
It stopped my heart, sent the blood the wrong way round,
And the summer stayed the same, it stripped me down to the wire,
I was left exposed like a fire hazard,
I lost my mind a thousand times and always seemed to find it,
I took notes of time and dates, and what triggered these shakes,
I was welcomed open armed by the darkest shades,
The doctor gave me pills to take, he said they'd keep my grounded,
I gave up my mind, I said goodbye to my insides,
I still haven't cried since that faithful night,
When the world has forced me down and whispered goodbyes in my ear,
Convinced myself I'm bowing out,
I'm holding hands with all my fears
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3. |
The Back Wall
04:21
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I have been misled, this pain inside my head,
Doesn't go away with alcohol consumption or a bad case of stay-in-beds,
We have been worn out, taken with the wind,
Social aspirations out of reach but we're still alive and in one piece,
But sometimes the world is warm and my skin doesn't shy from attention,
Terrified of saying my goodbyes, formally acquainted, surrounded my strangers,
And I'm just killing time,
Keep up my appearance, social suicide,
Stumbling over chords I never learned to play in public,
Petrified of contact, terrified of speech,
I'll meet you at the back wall where these lights won't reach,
I can see it in their smiles, you can read it in their eyes,
My own conversations, everyone can hear,
They've been reading my body language,
Sorry I can't talk right now, my minds been in the woods,
Following these shadows down paths I never thought I could,
But sometimes the world is warm and my skin doesn't shy from attention,
Terrified of saying my goodbyes, formally acquainted, surrounded my strangers,
And I'm just killing time,
Keep up my appearance, social suicide,
Stumbling over chords I never learned to play in public,
Petrified of contact, terrified of speech,
I'll meet you at the back wall where these lights won't reach
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Therapy
03:47
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My friends are my enemies,
They've done nothing wrong but I just can't meet their eyes,
It's killing me, I just want to breathe at my own pace,
I grew up without worry,
I acquired a couple of scars and a few bad habits,
I still bite my nails down until they bleed,
And it's all games until someone loses their mind,
And it's all fun until it hurts to wake up,
We can laugh together and drink and bullshit our way back to being alone when the lights turn off,
I took time to find therapy,
Stepped back from the house lights, said "hi" to my shadow,
He's missed me, he keeps me company,
I lost track of my conscience,
Spent too much time in the folds, it turned my cryptic,
Decipher me and free my body,
I said goodbye to the shivers,
I waved so long to the sleepless nights,
Adios, adios,
I lost a lot of time, I lost a lot of life,
I'm picking up the pieces, rebuild with new foundations,
And it's all games until someone loses their mind
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5. |
Erlich
04:03
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I've been living in a house of cards,
Can't stop the walls from crumbling,
Conversations I can't focus on,
I'm tuned into the same old stations,
And it's poison to my ears, I wish someone else could hear it,
My movements are scattered thoughts thrown blindly to the wind,
And it seems such a dream now,
I'm starting to forget the things I saw when you found me sitting in the dark,
And those sleepless nights have been replaced by a steady haze,
I can't remember what it felt like, let's keep it that way,
I've been listening to the sound of cars and the footsteps on the pavement,
I'm hearing screams that they don't recall, I'm wide awake in deep concentration,
Maybe I can sleep with my eyes wide open, I just can't seem to get this off my mind,
I've been watching these colours rust as the roof over my head begins to turn jet black and I can't see anything,
And I've been calling out into the darkness,
"Someone save me! Someone tell me what went wrong!",
But I know the answers, I knew them all along,
And it seems such a dream now,
I've been watching these colours rust as the roof over my head begins to turn jet black and I can't see anything,
And I've been calling out into the darkness,
"Someone save me! Someone tell me what went wrong!",
But I know the answers, I knew them all along
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6. |
Low Season
03:25
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It's hard to explain,
A sour sensation, it crept up quietly,
Caught me off guard,
Stole my attention, blindsided by myself,
I guess I've been thinking a lot,
Spent my winter fighting a war with the sound of my voice,
November was cold, December was freezing,
It came in through the walls,
I needed your voice, you need my comfort,
But we didn't have a choice,
I guess I'll see you next year,
Spent my Christmas hiding away with my panic attacks,
We kept in contact with short sweet messages,
Keeping our plans to ourselves and no one else,
I'll waste my time, tell my family I'm fine,
I won't trouble them, they're happier ignorant,
So tell me I'm fine, some kind of confirmation of what's inside this mind stretched,
I'm looking for answers in all the wrong places,
At the bottom of a bag, at the bottom of a glass
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7. |
Thieves
03:42
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Carelessly kind or that's what I try,
My own advice I take every time,
But that doesn't work, can't push like I should,
I'm coughing up smoke, I'm rotten like wood,
I found myself feeling alone in a house full of people I know,
I became hard company to keep, dragging everyone I know down with me,
Stealing my bones, stealing my soul, stealing my mind,
Patiently you held my hands, you stopped me from caving in,
So effortless, so effortlessly, you never stopped saving me,
Patiently you held my bones, you laid my foundations,
So natural, so naturally, your mind keeps my brain off repeat,
Stealing my bones, stealing my soul, stealing my mind
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Max William recommends:
A fellow Isle of Wight gravel-voiced heavy drinker currently situated in Southampton. You should check him out cause his records far more punk rock than mine.
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